/i/ - International

Let me be first to tell a story.
My usual way of living could be described as "spiral adventure within an ant farm" or "reappearing jigsaw puzzle with multilayered paths".
I really don't know how things will go, until I try them.
My problem solving of the real issues is rather incomplete or left aside.
And so I return to my "wishful thinking", as if it was this "hope generator", in opposite to "hateful self-entitlement" and "frightened indecisiveness".

It is "evasion" in some sense... "Evasion from a draw" I'd say.
And it's not about "Who is the best", it's about "What will be after ourselves".
My method to make things better is like inventory optimisation.
From the hypothesis building, to the skill application and then it's simply effect evaluation.
I like to make virtual things as well as material products.
And I also see the need of rebuilding "old world" with all of its ineffectiveness and mistakenness.

The real courage to confront those problems comes with practical sessions and understanding the meaningful details of the "chaotic horror"...
And it's not only about visual envelope that you see.
The main thing of evil, in my opinion, is discrepancy between function and form.
Bad things seem so much cohesive and slippery, you know?..

And despite all of the bad that exist, there is a fraction of things, that we love and support.
To be prepared and defend against catastrophies are right things to do.
And trying to reorganize and use things that are wrong could help save valuable resources, including health and time.

>>9317
*optimization

There is much more to learn from our usual task solving during the day.

At first, it seems like we could pretend to be like someone and try our best to make things happen.

Then we gain a portion of unique experience, we could rather continue (and make a progress), make a pause (and restore our potential), return to the previous state (and rethink existing options) or...
Step aside (to experiment and reassure ourselves about occured possibilities or risks).

And in the end of the session, we could feel either gratification (bravery), exhaustion (pain), anxiety (fear) or something close to jocosity (thrill).

I like to be honest with myself and I have a percuasive thought that all things in reality are balanced somehow.
It might be "wishful thinking", and it also could be a representation of viewpoint, the expectations and maybe a directional pathway to achieve those valuable goals.

The more we go towards our neccessities (are they sinscere?), the more we urge for unbelievable (are they reasonable?)—the less we feel guilty and useless, because even if we make a mistake, we could always try to understand the consequences and adjust our behaviour (and our worldview too).

The inspiration we are looking for could be found in our memories (if it's too hard to remember, it's a good moment for reorganization and planning) and in our inner emotions (which are connected to our moral beliefs).

How many different disadvantages (and/or degrees of detriment) could we really fix/bring through (make impossible/turn into advantage)?

If there are obstacles on the way to the chosen aim, there should also be some "aiding" or "guiding" things.

It's not "luck", it's just other people experience, which could be transcendent.
I mean, if there is a blind person, who never saw the blue color, then he/she heard about what this color is associated with and there it could be found, and then if that person could see with some medical assist he/she would indeed know what color blue represent in reality.

Another way to look at guidance is through metod of Richard Feynman self-teaching: to study material you could read the text and then start to explain it outloud, as if you were in front of auditory of students, so this material becomes easier to yourself to memorize and use for practical operations.

This could be not in time, I know...
I'd like to tell about another idea of how to make life better:

Let's suppose, there are two friends and they often have conversations about their day-to-day lives.
And on of them suggests to have a contest:

"- I often hear about how other people say bad words about me, even if I did all fine.
- Yeah, it's a bummer, you should not take it too personal, maybe they have their own problems, and you have become someone they say something negative, because they know you would not be rude to them in return.
- That's interesting thing to talk about too...
I just wanted to continue my thought, if I may...
- Yeah, sure.
- Well, those negative critiques, even if they arn't related, I could use for my motivation.
- Really? How?
- I think sometimes it works as an approval for my previous intentions.
I feel that I'm not alone in my experience, when I look through works of other people, when I find out about their problems.
- That's quite familiar feeling, please, continue.
- So I thought about how to deal with all that and come to conclusion:
we could define our negative influence from the outside and then compensate it with our own positive force, and will be like a contest!
- Yeah, cool... What do you mean by "contest"?
- We could tell each other about our problems, ways of dealing with them, and also about the results, so each type of these practices could potentially become some kind of positive skill to train with a person with similar kind of personality.
- So are we talking about our environmental conditions, our experience with adversities, or is it about our propensity to learn different things?
- It's all 3, adherently..."

I.e. self-organization, practices of problem solving and dialogues with good people in a good faith to learn about their difficulties and/or accomplishments, to share your opinions and to get some motivation.

The contrast between interpretations of painful past and envisions of possible future...

The difference between passive/pretencious and willingful/curious tendencies in our societies...

And the proportion of needed capabilities in our ambitious plans...

In our minds...

It is huge (as we could experience through the marely endless quantity of testing and discussion).

It has risks of escalation into a socio-cultural conflict (without intermediaries and finding a fair consensus through mediators).

I'd say it's something between 1/8 and 1/3 (every potential course of dreambuilding-realityenchancing need to be estimated, prepared and calculated in a voluntary and good-natured way).

(And in the minds of who will live after... After we make our worthy ideas real, at least some of them, which are brave, essential and truesome.)

>>9316
Speedrunning any% daily qualia overdose (sober, no drugs). I will not elaborate how, it's empirically existential
Results: functional psychosis, antisociality, derealization, depersonalization, anhedonia WITH steady activity
Pretty good would recommend

>>9373
Yeah, this feels so common these days, we have like made two or even four steps further since "everyone lives in his/her info bubble"...
Now we are talking about competition, and it is surely has more potentiality to make our future brighter!
Precision and persistance over quantity and complexity shall bring relief, my friend, I tell you.

There is a happy moment in creative practice, and it's different from mindless travelling or making things on demand.

At first you could feel the need to bring some great idea to life. It could be described as "wing span", because you are trying to grasp the borderline of possibilities you could reach and obtain via own skill. And as soon as you name all points of interest and understand all the lines of processes, you will come to a strategic plan...

Then you will organize and filter all your previously collected pieces, each with it's own image, description, values in the context of chosen task in your project.

And after you gain neccessary experience in your work, you could feel more comfortable steadyness and feeling of own possibilities to create and do better of what you have already made.

So, a cool thing to try is "charging up" by implementing small tasks, gradually move onto the more complex subjects, and refill your enthusiasm by charging in small tasks again...

Maybe this wave-like activity is best manifested in Placebo - One of a Kind: "On top of the world you get nothing done."

A thoght about our culture and behavior I'd like to share and discuss.

I remember time in my childhood when the main two (or maybe two and a half) motivations were:

1. How to find and get access to things I like (i.e. "fairy tales", "toys", "cartoons", "places", "people")?
2. How to stay in the moment and make right decision/do the most cool thing possible?

And even then it was understandable (perhaps not only for me) that there is so much potential in human imagination, particulary in concepts that have not been tested yet...

I also remember how I could share the same tastes and knowledge with my classmates and at the same time be more connected with kids who were "less popular", and yet they contributed to speak freely about most interesting topics.
And I thought the level of our friendship (and honesty) was related to how we speak with our relatives (due to "moral rules" or "emotional accents").

So the real issue turned out into rethinking social hierarchy, behavioral norms and trying to model a nice format for appropriate synergies between "birds of the same flock".

What is the inner purpose or/and reson we would like to express/realize?

What are the mechanisms we could use for universal/justified/durable exchange of ideas/obligatories/products?

And which of our "demanding and outrageous requests" could be turned into "valuable and charitable proposals"?